Bless my Memory

I awaken with a start, pulse a- pounding with my heart
As I’ve dreamed another nightmare of the soul
Like a vision dark but clear I am flushed with fiery fear
And I’m on the verge of losing all control.

For a moment I’m a prisoner of a still fresh memory
My past life rears its ugly head as my mind plays tricks on me
And I need a check on my reality.

For in those moments chains of doubt
Come to my heart and find me out
I surely need your Grace to see me through
For I was lost but now I’m found
That former life can’t keep me bound
But sometimes Lord I find it hard to trust
You understand that I am only dust.

So I will remember the day when you taught me how to pray
And pray I will until my knees are sore
For there is no lack in you- my hard heart hasn’t got a clue
Yet you dwell inside me at my very core

That’s what you have promised, and that’s what I believe
I’ll trust, adhere, rely on this thing impossible to conceive
This gift that I have received

There are moments chains of doubt
Come to my heart and find me out
I surely need your Grace to see me through
For I was lost but now I’m found
That former life can’t keep me bound
But sometimes Lord I find it hard to trust
You understand that I am only dust.

But I see the transformation and I see the evidence
And I’ll walk by faith and not by sight in growing confidence
As I cast myself upon your mercy seat
I pray my consecration be complete.

Forgive my sin as I confess
Restore my soul to righteousness
Help me Lord to bless this test…
And bless my memory.

Anthony Foster
January 25, 2010